Well, it’s been tough, with this job changing decision. On one hand - full time job, benefits and all, but in a company I have no idea of, that seems to be a start up and that doesn’t offer much advance. On the other hand - Pfizer, largest pharmaceutical company, consulting with possibilities… well, those are endless. Don’t really know what to do. Although I have accepted job offer (usually doesn’t mean much), still don’t think I am going to leave since this place seems to offer more advantages then the other. Although, I don’t know if they have a budget for me. Although they need the software I am writing. Alhtough, although, although…

Gee, choosing between two jobs shouldn’t be that hard! I feel like I’m torn between two girlfriends - one I’ve been with for almost a year and completely new one. Who knows!

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It’s the Valentine’s Day! It really is, really!

Today two my best friends (or at least people who I thought are my best friends) decided to dump me. For most - because I am a bad person, just a jerk and so on. They had too many insults with me (we haven’t really talked for last three months, so probably each day counts as an insult). They are fed up with me, my rudeness, impudeness, egoism and al these nice words you usually hear from an angry leaving girlfriend. So two my ex best friends delivered it to me today. Perfect day, I must admit. Oh, and by the way, it was I who decided to break up with them. Because you know, they didn’t call me or talked to me for last three months, since I wasn’t calling or talking to them. So, it’s all my fault.

Well, to be honest - to most extend it is. When your best friends start asking you to go to the same restaurant all the time, KNOWING that you simply cannot afford to go to that place - you think it’s ok, they just forgetting, no biggie. When they start going out without you to movies, other places and then say “we tried to go with you, but you were busy” - you think: yeah, it’s my fault, I was busy working full time job and getting up own business. When they party without you and tell you about it on a next day, you think: it’s okay, we haven’t talked in a while, so they just forgot to invite me, no big deal. But when they tell you - it’s your fault that we are breaking up, you only think about yourself, you think: Hello, I’m an egoist, not a moron!

But then again, once you have decided to break your friendship, why not behave like decent or at least adult people? Why do you have to unload tons of bullshit and crap on a person, tired from a Monday morning, especially on Valentine’s Day? Why do you have to put words in my mouth that I have never said? Even after I repeatedly told you I haven’t said that? What’s the purpose of twisting almost every single sentence I wrote? I mean - you don’t think I’m good enough for you - fine, hurts, but fine, things happen, hope the new (the replacement) jerk will be better, here’s your stuff, take care, be well. Why all this bullshit, and crap, and calling names? C’mon, we’re a bit past kindergarden… at least 20 years for some of us.

Some things are so beyond me, I think I missed something at kindergarden. At least calling names part definitely wasn’t on my schedule.

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